9 February. One of the worst days in a long time. I've been watching an anime, Haibane Renmei. It's about angels who don't remember their pasts. The main character loses a friend and starts to question if she deserves the kindness her friends give her and the carefree life of an angel. She runs away and falls in a well. She is saved by the communicator, and he tells her it will be okay, but she says it won't. She begs him to a place she deserves to be. And "everyone leaves me," Reki said. I cried a lot and had a knot in my throat all day. I'm just devastated. I feel broken . I just want out of the well.